My name is Hugh, and I have ADHD.
This does not come as a surprise to anyone who knows me. I was diagnosed back around 1980. I like to say I had ADHD before it was cool. Since the age of 16, I have been unmedicated.
I am now about to turn 39. And day before yesterday was my first day back on Ritalin. For which many people are thankful.
All my adult life, I have either had an assistant or employees. I would create something – they cleaned up the mess. But now, it is all on me. And I am drowning in the mess.
The thing I like about Ritalin is that it is short acting. I still get to be me (I like me!) but, when I need to focus, can just pop a pill and there it is: clarity.
Like I said, day before yesterday was my first day back. So far, so good. I do know I have gotten a crapload of stuff done since then – but that could just be a coincidence.
I hope this works. I dislike having things fall apart because I dropped the ball. I dislike having hundreds of unanswered emails. I dislike missing lunch appointments because I forgot to write them down and I dislike always feeling overwhelmed.
Mainly, I see my ADHD as a gift. I am a hunter, not a farmer.
Sadly, right now the world needs me to be a farmer.