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The Relentless Pursuit of Beauty

This essay published February 23, 2015

Beautiful Autumn
I spend my days with people who live in homelessness. And people who do sex work. And people who are mentally ill. And people who are suicidal. I am not complaining, mind you – just telling the truth. That is what my life looks like.

And my off time is spent reading poetry. And watching films from the 40’s. And planting crocus in my flower bed. And browsing used bookstores. And listening to, depending on the day, Bach or B.B. King or Miles Davis. Some people call this self-care. I call it pursuing beauty.

I have mentioned before that Bart Campolo was a huge influence on how I minister. The most important thing he taught me, by far, was to pursue beauty.

He told me that if I knew I was going to walk across the desert tomorrow, I should be gorging myself with water tonight. Likewise, he said, if I know that tomorrow I will be surrounded by ugliness, I should strive to gorge myself with beauty to prepare for it. My days are pretty ugly at times. So he insisted I hang at museums, read good books, watch good films, read poetry and play in my garden. All in the relentless pursuit of beauty as a prophylactic against the ugliness I will encounter.

The reality, I have come to learn in the years since, is that your ability to survive in the face of unspeakable ugliness is inversely related to the amount of beauty you allow in your life. And while doing this work has placed me in contact with all the ugliness you can stand, the beauty you have to look for yourself. In fact, the beauty often has to be hunted for, and even planned.

So, I am always seeking beauty as if my life depends on it – because it does.

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Hugh Hollowell is a writer and speaker based in Jackson, MS. His writings have appeared in, among other places, The Washington Post, Sojourners, and Ethics Daily. He only publishes here sporadically, but does publish a weekly newsletter. Some people like it.

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Comments

  1. Elizabeth Barnes says

    February 23, 2015 at 7:46 am

    Incredible wisdom, Chicken Man.

  2. Michelle says

    February 23, 2015 at 12:04 pm

    Hugh, thank you for those words. Your work inspires me to do more, and I truly appreciate it. THANK YOU!

  3. Christian says

    February 23, 2015 at 4:37 pm

    Very wise. But what is really ugly in this world ? Beauty is everywhere.

  4. Susie says

    February 24, 2015 at 11:24 am

    Deeply Grateful~ for such profound words that my heart can deeply relate to ~

  5. Sydney says

    February 25, 2015 at 2:36 am

    I feel badly for you Hugh Hollowell and for the individuals with whom you work.
    I also work with the homeless, mentally ill and suicidal but I look for and see the beauty in these individuals. I do not see them or the condition of their lives as ugliness.

    • Hugh Hollowell says

      February 25, 2015 at 8:00 am

      You misunderstand. I didn’t say they are ugliness. The things they share, the things they endure are ugly. For instance, just yesterday I heard from a man about his wife committing suicide in front of him. He thought that was, at the least, ugly. I did too.

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